I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm currently going through another major major confusion.
"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded."
Inter, Juventus and Real Madrid are one of the many teams interested in snatching Cesc away from Arsenal but it is Barcelona, Cesc's home where he grew up who's been the most persistent and vocal in screaming to the world that they want to BRING CESCSY BACK!
Back to Barcelona, where he was born, raised and first learned the beautiful game.
May 12, 2009
May 21, 2009
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Headline today: June 2, 2009
As an Arsenal, Barcelona and Cesc Fabregas fan, i'm really really confused and bothered about these speculations. It is hard to choose. It's like having 3 children where you want them all to just be happy. The idea of Cesc going back to Barcelona is beyond description. I know in my heart that he will return there, i just don't know when. It radiates within him that he does not even have to say it.
He wants to play for Barcelona, with his fellow Catalans and friends where he grew up.
He wants to play for his country and people. He has barcelona running in his veins. That , you cannot take away from him. Just look at the way he plays. That's 100% barca DNA.
Him playing with one of his bestest childhood friends , Lionel Messi is INSANE! Cesc used to sacrifice fouls for Messi when they were still young boys in the youth camp. He befriended Messi when no one talked to the little guy because others find him weird. You won't get surprised when Messi says he's aching for Cesc to play with him in Barcelona, their history go way way back when they were little kids playing Playstation in their rooms at night after school and football. BEAT THAT! haha now can you imagine these 2 playing together in one team? IT WOULD BE SO BEAUTIFUL, IT'LL MAKE YOU CRY! :p
Then there's PEP GUARDIOLA, Barcelona's current manager who's only in his first year but has already made Barcelona one of the greatest teams ever assembled in football. He is cesc's IDOL and FAVORITE PLAYER IN THE WORLD! Cesc grew up knowing he would be like him. He knew he won't be there to score shitloads of goals! At a young age, he already knew he would be a playmaker, like his idol, Pep.
READ: When Cesc arrived in Arsenal (15 years of age) from the barcelona youth camp, he only had 1 jersey with him. It was Pep's Barcelona jersey #4 signed "Someday you'll be Barca's #4" by Pep himself. The manager and legendary playmaker has always been vocal that "Someday, Cesc will run barcelona's midfield." This story always makes me emo. I love these men too much.
Note: Oh and Pep roots for Arsenal in the EPL and this is a no brainer. He said he admires how Arsenal plays. LOL offcourse. His christmas break consist of bringing his wife on a date to London to watch Arsenal games. How can you not love this man? These catalan boys KILL ME BIG TIME. They just have this certain charm that will make you want to stay with them forever.
Then there's also the THIERRY HENRY AND ALEX HLEB FACTOR. Two Former Arsenal players now playing for Barcelona who are also CESC'S CLOSEST FRIENDS.
Offcourse, there's also the WINNING part. Barcelona just won everything in football this year including the la liga and Champions league. They're considered the best in the world today and who wouldn't want to play for team like that? especially after Arsenal's sucky season and their chaotic status right now.
But more than anything else, it would be just going back home. Retiring and playing for his country, with his catalan girlfriend, catalan family and people. I know you can hear me saying this already but the old cliche "there's no place like home" or "Home is where the heart is" is just spot on.
What i feel about this? Being a fan of all three sides involved, i think the perfect scenario that will create a win-win situation for everyone would be Cesc to stay a few more years with Arsenal and see what happens next. He should help the team to rebuild and yes, win something first! I've always thought he needs to WIN SOMETHING AS AN ARSENAL PLAYER FIRST BEFORE HE CAN LEAVE. That will help seal his LEGEND STATUS in the future too. Then he can go back to Barcelona and retire there. But not when he is too old that he's not world class anymore, just the right age and time to replace XAVI as barcelona's main midfield maestro.
I can't imagine Arsenal losing cesc now. It would be the biggest blow ever. It would be painful, not only to the Arsenal team and players but also the Arsenal fans. What would happen to Kolo, Theo, Sagna and all the other true blooded Arsenal players? Even if they're still a good team with Arshavin etc. It would be a big blow in their morale to lose Cesc right now.
Cesc must be so stressed right now with all the pressure. He just turned 22 last May 4 and just got out from a long injury and a struggling season with Arsenal. I'm just hoping for the best. He's good player and person that he should be all right. He deserves to win and be happy.
..okay i'll stop now before i get emo and shit here...
/obsessed "like a mom to his kids" Cesc fan "who got carried away" signing off
Lisa Jack, then a student of photography at Occidental College, sought a striking subject for a portrait project and was tipped off about a charismatic freshman named “Barry” Obama who would make an ideal subject.
Circa 1980
These images from 1980 offer a view of that young man grappling with issues that would shape him to become the 44th President of the United States.
He has always been cool. I really think we could be friends. We'll talk about basketball, books, movies and music.
Lisa Jack has hit the homerun here. Credits to M + B gallery for the lovely photos.
One thing that makes me really mad and sad in football is when players say they love their club(team) and yet they still leave. Thierry Henry did it. Flamini did it. Adebayor almost did it and is looking at it again right now. I wanted to kill them. Why why why? and you know what's funny.. now i know why and i can't clearly explain it but now i really know why.
Kolo Toure, an Arsenal legend who still plays for the club recently talked about his love for Arsenal and how thoughts of leaving still gets to him sometimes. He said "When you love somebody it's important that they love you back. I have loved this club for years, and I always give everything for the team."
"I believe you can only truly love one club in your career, and my club is Arsenal. It doesn't matter if I ever move onto another team, Arsenal will always be the one in my heart. When my career is finished and I'm older, I will always think of myself as an Arsenal man."
I want to feel the same way and i am the type of person who will most likely feel the same. I want to be part of a team that i will always carry with me when i get older. Just one team and when i'm older and done, i can say, i'm once from "this team" and if i play for other teams, i will always consider myself just from "this team". Just like my favorite footballer in the world and dream man, Thierry Henry, An Arsenal legend who yesterday won his first champions league trophy with Barcelona... "I love Barcelona and i like playing here, but my heart and blood is Arsenal." He is now one of Barcelona's star players but he knows and everybody knows his heart belongs to Arsenal and he is a gunner forever.
Kolo pointed out receiving the love back. Now i get it. Mathieu Flamini said he loved the club and Arsenal constantly tells him that they do value him but he said they never really SHOWED it. All talk but can he feel it? where is it? He now plays for A.C Milan and recently just proved how Arsenal badly needed him. He created a big hole in that Arsenal team. He is one of Cesc's best friends and when he left, Cesc was never the same. Cesc badly misses his holding midfielder. Arsenal fans could not comprehend the fact that we could've made him stay if only we returned his love for the club.
When i finished college, i told myself i will find a job that i love and will stay there forever regardless of other things. If there is love, then everything will be alright. I was wrong. It will never ever be just that and now i know.
I hear you Adebayor! And today, i'm on my way to find my Arsenal. Thanks for the word Kolo.
The awesome google page right now. The UEFA Champions league finals later between my Barcelona and Man freaking United. Two things i love, google and football. I am praying for my barca boys.
This one reminded me of my old blog post about this particular Yahoo page. This was the game 1 of the playoffs between the Phoenix Suns and my spurs where Timmy made a miraculous three to win the game.
This was april 2008. And i still love my TIM DUNCAN who is unbelievable as a player and person. I will introduce him to my kids. They will learn a lot from him.
I'm really bored waiting for the CL finals game later.
I feel like watching Fight Club right now. It's my favorite movie and i always have this moment when i HAVE TO watch it right now like now.
The things you own end up owning you.
If I had a tumor, I’d named it Marla. Marla…the little scratch on the roof of your mouth that would heal if only you could stop tonguing it, but you can’t.
Kish's birthday April 25: Wack wack function room Attire: Super casual, flipflops and comfy shits required Definitely a not so soberclub night but I LOVE LOVE IT yeah LOVE I love the celebrant, i always tell her she's one of the nicest people i have ever met in my life and then she'll ask me wtf is wrong with me and then i get back at her by saying life is short and i like saying things the moment i mean it. Love you kish.
Our lovely drinks
We don't know what's in these but they give you a good kick
and i got punked that night cause everything i did not refuse any offer while the others just took around 5 :(
We played a game where four each of us should race to finish 4 glasses using a straw. After u finish one glass, you have to turn around before proceeding to the next.
It was a game of 6. Aj. Me. Nash. Mariel. Azelle. Izo
The moment they said that the bottom 3 losers will get punished, Aj and i looked into each other and said GAME ON! We're so competitive that we'd rather DIE and collapse there than embarass ourselves with a bottom three place! haha
CHEATER! CHEATER!!
Evidence: check out Nash in the middle caught on cam cheating by not USING A STRAW! haha :P
AJ finished first, i got 2nd place and Azelle Izo finished third and fourth but they got violations lol
You can see AJ and me watching them here haha
The bottom 3 punishment(or not?) haha
Presenting our bottom three: Nash (haha!), Azelle and Izo
them taking it It actually looks good
then we played another game: HEP HEP - KEFAY hosted by KB Our version of Wowowee's HEP HEP HOORAY lol haha
Last 3 standing! My shorty got the next boot and guess who won? AJ! HEP HEP KEFAY CHAMPION! HAHA
Kb and my shorty These did some funny crazy shits in there
Jox and i (looking thrashed)
Better
After the drinkin game, we got shook up and suddenly it's a turbulent world! Haha Nash was tipsy and he kept on doing crazy shits that night too
Like grabbing the table and chair cloths and putting us inside it like here! Yes, that's me!
cool sign
There was a point where i really wanted to jump off the pool and swim! I can swim (learned it my whole life!). I can do freestyle, backstroke and breaststroke(my fave and best and Michael Phelp's weakest booyah! haha) except butterfly but i'm sure if i jumped off , i will drown 100%.
Izo getting ready for the addictus shot from the soberclub guy
My adddictus turn
This is shitty me after haha
Those things taste so weird
<3
Via, Aj, Erwin (my NFF who calls me 'peninsulares' i love him!) my shorty and i plus izo
Our not so soberclub was cut short because someone was brought to the hospital. She was so drunk (hallucinating nad puking blood?) :( but she was all right. Went home immediately after the short hospital stint. Happy Birthday Kish!!!!! love you!!!
The original plan was Sagada but then we have no time to prepare and the way there will be hassle so we thought of Baguio until we ended up with Tagaytay because Kimchi's boyfriend, Jeff offered their resthouse. So we stayed there for three days. It was worth it. Jeff's resthouse was big and beautiful. Had fun with kimchi (Ceetee's sister) and her friends too (UAP students). All in all we just wasted our money eating bulalo etc. and starbucks lol. Zipline was the highlight and long drives with Nash plus shopping for pasalubongs. All in all, it was a nice break from work and stress though we need another vacation like 1 week!
On the way to the South to pick up Mariel.. Nash was using a map! Map of METRO MANILA! hahah and we are all from Metro Manila! hahah
Complete! Me, Ceetee, Mariel and Nash
We all camwhored all the way
Channeling that Electric fan shot using the opened window lol
...and bulalo bone marrow!!! haha i can hear Nash screaming eeew
I was so excited to try one since i hear that it tastes sinfully good but wtf i tried a small amount and it tasted weird and the one we had looked even weirder! lol check this out!!!
haha wtf i know what you're thinking!
This trip was filled with resting, drinking and eating! with emphasis on eating! Every minute, we were craving for something! Whatta trip.. Nash even said we came to Tagaytay just to eat! There was this lunch we had at the famous RSM Lutong bahay and we ate so much , we could not breathe and move! We were supposed to drive around and rest then proceed to picnic grove to zipline but we're so full and tired we went back to the house and slept! WTF hahah! Good thing we still had time when we woke up so we went straight to picnic grove.
Zipline with Mariel!
She was so scared! She was holding my hand the whole time!
but right after, she swore she heard me say 'God is good' while we were in the middle of the cliff! haha wtf
She did not want to let go of the rope! wtf haha
That was us! Can you see it? We look funny
WTF haha
We did the 2 way option where you go first doing that superman position and the sitting position goign back haha i love the superman one! Next time it would just be like that and no more sitting..that was boring and slow! haha
I can't help but crack up when i look at this pic wtf we look so funny
Ceetee and Nash's turn
Nash was so brave at the start but he confessed he thought he would die while in the middle! haha
Marielly and I sweating after the zipline
A fun trip overall althought i went home so poor after using up all my money on food haha wtf. We were with Kimchi's friends too. Awesome awesome people. They are funny and crazier. One thing i've discovered about myself is that i can't last a day without going online! Shit i was craving for it the first night especially since it's Cesc's debut game after being sidelined for 3 months due to injury! I just have to see that you know! So we had to drive around looking for wi-fi but then it started raining pretty hard and it was freezing cold plus no wifi area. So we headed straight to the house and had a drinking session with Jeff and Kimchi's group. Good thing the next door neightbor has a wifi so i was able to go online using my laptop (i had to bring it..i'm sorry) for 5 minutes but was able to see the game result lol and cesc gave 2 assists haha.
Steak steak! haha at highlands
I want to go back..actually i want to go anywhere as long as it's far from my house , manila and work. I am so tired and my life is so boring right now..just work sleep and eat and then tomorrow, the same shit again. Another thing is the weather. It is so fucking hot here in Manila! It burns! Freaking global warming. Like right now while uploading this, i have my AC on my face and i'm still sweating haha shit...
During college, there was this famous rule that almost all of us follow in order to survive.
Working hard and working smart.
It is important to not only work hard (which is elementary) but you have to work smart. By doing so, you will be able to accomplish sooooo much MORE than by just working hard alone.
Today was officially WORKING DUMB day. I've only accomplished 1 task (read: ONE!) because we did not work smart (i tried but haaay). I wasted half of the day by doing nothing. I am so pissed off, not because i have to do something all over again but more of because I COULD HAVE ACCOMPLISHED SO MANY THINGS TODAY if ONLY we thought of some things before doing and moving on.
I really can't believe i fell into doing those shit today. Stupid stupid move. I hate myself for not doing something that could have prevented it. But how can you save it when you're the only one who thinks it is actually stupid? haha and besides, i'm the one who's gonna do it anyway so why the fuck should people care right?
My eyes and right hand also died today because of that. Grrrr i hate myself today. And it is not me here complaining again but really i swear, wrong move. Wasted day. Whatta stupid stupid day. Indeed working hard and working dumb. Dr. K would have bitchslapped me if he knew.
"I don't want to knock my opponent out. I want to hit him, step away and watch him hurt. I want his heart." -->Joe Frazier, boxing legend
About Me
Roanna
i like football,magic realism, vanilla, mindfuck films, trippy music, kids, interesting deep people that can mindfuck you, breathing cultures, crying in movies, latin america and the boy who loves to celebrate by eating kinder egg and drinking coca cola.
